Monday, April 27, 2009

Simple Woman's Daybook - April 27

Outside my window... it is a warm-ish day. Maybe we will spend some time outside, this afternoon.

I am thinking... about teaching the boys how to get along with one another and about how funny my dog is, playing with his food like a cat.

I am thankful for... My husband's passionate heart and the dynamic/charismatic personality that draws people to him. I am thankful for my children. They are smart and good.

In the learning room... Haydn did very well on his last Progress Report. He will pass 1st grade with flying colors. Both boys are very excited about their new school in the fall.

From the kitchen... I am cooking more consistently. Makes me realize how few dishes I have. LOL! Pots and pans and bakeware, that is. I have plenty of plates and bowls.

I am creating... Nada. I am closer to starting Leila's scrapbook, though, and I have been typing up poems found in old journals. Also, I picked up a copy of Bird by Bird by Anne Lamott from the library for some inspiration.

I am going... to fold laundry today. Fun stuff, huh?

I am wearing... athletic pants and a t-shirt. I just took Haydn to school.

I am reading... Grace Eventually by Anne Lamott, and Meredith handed me a copy of The Lost Art of Keeping Secrets by Eva Rice.

I am hoping... in God. He is my hope and my Salvation, and I am daily putting my hope and trust in His providence and grace.

I am hearing... the dog chew his food.

Around the house... There is laundry to be folded and dishes to be washed.

One of my favorite things... is spending time with friends. New and old friendships feed me.

A few plans for the rest of the week... Tuesday lunch with the girls, talent show at church on Weds, Disciple Thurs morning...

Here is a picture thought I am sharing with you...
Bird egg

Sunday, April 26, 2009

Complaint Free - Day 1

Well, that 40 day book fast was just SO MUCH FUN that I decided to do another theme. Actually, our church is doing this theme, and I am joining in. It is not easy. It is, believe it or not, WAY harder than not reading for 40 days.

This morning, Raigan preached on The Complaint Free World. At the end of service, we went forward to receive a purple bracelet, which we will wear for this project. Every time I complain (am critical, gossip, use sarcasm) I must switch the bracelet to my other wrist and START OVER. The goal is 21 days of complaint free living, because it takes 21 days to form a new habit. I have seen the impact this has made on Raigan's life, and I am willing to give it a shot.

Today was Day 1, but I have already moved the bracelet twice. Once, I was critical of how Corey is doing with HIS bracelet and once I snapped at Haydn for carelessness. So tomorrow will be Day 1: Take 2.


Here goes nothing. Anyone want to join me?


Heather


PS My boys tried it, but David couldn't keep up with the bracelet and Haydn enjoys complaining too much to stick with it.

Friday, April 24, 2009

Reversal of Destiny

I wish there was some way to keep the people I love from being hurt. Over the years, I have seen a particular situation hurt my husband's heart again and again. I have seen him try and try to make it right and nothing ever seems to get any better. It is hard to realize how powerless I am in this and other such situations. Prayer is my weapon. It is a powerful weapon, but it often feels less than.

Emotion is not a true measure of God's movement.

Beth Moore recently said, in the Esther study, that when God seems the most absent, that is when He is the most present (my paraphrase). God's name appears nowhere in the book of Esther. Yet, as we read it, thousands of years later, His hand is so clearly on Esther and Mordecai. We can see God moving where they felt powerless and scared. And, also in the story of Esther, things kept getting worse and worse before they ever got better.

Beth Moore labeled it a "Reversal of Destiny." Life seems to be hurdling fast in one direction and then... GOD. He turns it around, 180 degrees.

At this point, we're only praying for a 90 degree turn, but I'll take that 180. I'll take anything God will give, and I think Corey feels the same.

Saturday, April 18, 2009

Currently April

Current Book(s): I just finished Are You Happy by Emily Fox Gordon. I found it, of all places, at the Dollar Tree when we lived in Brandon, and it has been on my "Mount To Be Read" for a year or so. Maybe not quite that long, but close. Good book. I have just started Michal, about David's first wife and a poetry anthology from 1995.

Current Playlist: Corinne Bailey Rae, thanks to my new friend, Jeff. I am craving Patty Griffin, but my mix CD of hers is missing (STILL) and my MP3s are on the old (dead) computer.

Current Shame Inducing Guilty Pleasure: Going back to bed after taking Haydn to school, on Monday and Fridays.

Current Color(s): It is SPRING! I am loving spring colors.

Current Fetish: Diet Coke or Diet Pepsi

Current Drink: Same, I suppose. Though, I am wishing they would make Aruba Sprite again.

Current Food: All of the lovely things I see on Food Network. LOL! I made some yummy chicken coated in bread crumbs, flour and parm cheese.

Current Favorite Favorite: Poetry quotes. That would be, lines FROM poems and words written ABOUT poems.

Current Wishlist: Spring clothes

Current Needs: Dental work, as always.

Current Triumph(s): Winning second place in a poetry contest, finding a doctor I am happy with, completing my 40 day book fast

Current Bane(s) of my Existence: Money, as always.

Current Celebrity Crush: eh

Current Indulgence: Planning our first family vacation with part of our tax return money.

Current Mood: Stable. At last.

Current #1 Blessing: Leila and Cat driving up today. I feel refreshed just looking forward to it.

Current Slang or Saying: We'll cross that bridge when we get to it.

Current Outfit: dark blue jeans and a mauve/cream top.

Current Excitement: Leila and Cat being here today, vacationing in May

Current Link(s): The Church You Know (the tithing one is my fave) and World-Wide Labyrinth Locator (see if there is one near you)

Friday, April 17, 2009

Friday Felicities 4/17/09

It is FRIDAY! Woo hoo! This is the time of year I start looking forward to summer. Why? I dunno. Halfway through summer, I will be praying for school to start. Anyhow, it is time for Friday Felicities in memory of Nattie-Pie! Run over to Becky's site to check it out.

Friday Felicities
  • Haydn showing us around his school
  • Greeting cards
  • Reading again
  • Sleeping in
  • Running into friends in Walmart
  • Lunches with old friends
  • Lunches with new friends
  • Lunches with the handsome hubster
  • Hot tamales
  • My lounge chair
  • Beautiful weather
  • Gift certificate for a free pedicure from an anonymous angel

Heather

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Foundations

I had a dream last night. In it, I was very worried about balance. This is normal for me. I am often complaining that I cannot seem to balance anything in my life. I am prone to extremes in one direction or another. In this dream, someone was telling me, "If your balance is off, you have to check the foundation." Immediately, I thought of our neighbor's house and the problem they have had with snakes burrowing down around their foundation. Then, I thought of a house we lived in, briefly, about 5 years ago. The foundation was slanted. The whole house tilted forward. Throughout this dream, I was seeing images of concrete with cracks in it, etc...

I woke up with this still heavy on my mind. If something is off in my life, perhaps I need to look at the foundation. Where am I rooting myself? In God and the Word or in myself and my own needs? Have I let snakes get to my foundation? Are their cracks that need mending? Am I leaning a little too far in one direction?

If the top is unbalanced, you may need to look at the bottom.

Sunday, April 12, 2009

The Son Rose Randomness

  • For the past 2 days, I have had an old hymn stuck in my head, "Up from the grave He arose, with a mighty triumph over His foes."
  • I woke up at 5:30 this morning and couldn't fall back asleep so I sat on the kitchen floor, by the big window, and watched the sky grow lighter. Then I crawled back into bed for about 20 minutes before getting up to watch the kids go crazy over their Easter baskets. Then, back to bed till 7.
  • Corey is already off to church, since he is playing with the band this morning. We'll leave in about 30 minutes, maybe less. I want to get there in time to get a seat and a cup of coffee.
  • I can read today, but I haven't yet. Feels odd, to know I can pick up a book now. Maybe I will wait until after church services and dinner.
  • I must remember to give Corey his Easter card. I bought it a month ago and have had it hidden away.
  • I am wearing a bright blue skirt, given to me by a friend in SC, a white top, my "spree" necklace (a gift from Catherine), white sandals and... I painted my toenails blue. I love Spring colors and Spring clothes.
  • He is risen!
  • He is risen indeed!

Friday, April 10, 2009

No Books - 2 Days Till Easter!

This morning, I was thinking about what I had hoped to get from this 40 day book fast and comparing it to what I am actually getting, as we near the end. My goals, once I knew God was definitely directing me to give up pleasure reading for Lent, included things like: Reading my Bible more, getting housework done in a more timely manner and playing with the children on a more regular basis.

The Bible reading was hit and miss. Some days I read more and some days I didn't. Conclusion? It isn't novels that are keeping me from reading my Bible. It's my priorities and lack of time management skills. Part of me wants to blame the ADHD for these failings, but I have a bible on my iPod, so I really could read anytime and anywhere. ADHD explains why I struggle, but does not excuse me from continuing the battle.

Housework? Um... It's about the same. Again, I must conclude that reading is not what is keeping me from doing housework. An unpleasant chore is an unpleasant chore, with or without books in my life.

I have spent more time with Corey and the kids over the last 40 days. I am more likely to cook dinner and eat with Corey. I am more likely to watch a TV show with him as well. I talk to the boys more. I build things out of Legos and K'nex with them. I am still not as good at this as their Daddy is, but I am working on it.

Mostly, what I have learned, is that I CAN live without books. I still don't want to, but I can. If you had asked me, a couple of months ago, to make a list of Things I Cannot Live Without, Books would have been at the top. Now, I would say: Prayer, Fellowship, Quiet....

Two days till Easter!

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

No Books - Day 37

Almost there, right? These last days are hard, though. I mean, I pass cheesy self-help books in Walmart and find myself staring longingly. I hate cheesy self-help books. But, I can do this. Just a few more days till Easter.

Listening to Corinne Bailey Rae... "Girl Put Your Records On." It is just a good song. Makes me want to dance languidly around my kitchen. Makes me wish for a summer day, with the windows open and a good friend to share it with.

I think I need a trip to Brandon soon. Some girlfriend time. But, this weekend is Easter. The next weekend is Hill Top, so Corey will be busybusybusy. Maybe the next weekend? Must discuss this with Corey and Brandon friends, see what works.

I am feeling really good about my new doctor. His nurse spent 20 years in Psychiatry and helped with an Adult ADHD study. It is nice to know this office has experience. I feel safe, and that goes a long way to helping me get better. I feel confident about my course of treatment. I know I was listened to. *sigh of relief*

Apparently my thoughts are coming in short spurts today. My allergies are still a mess. I am about to try to catch a nap before running the rest of my errands.

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Simple Woman's Daybook - Almost Easter

Getting so close to Easter. Here is a Simple Woman's Daybook entry:

Outside my window... the sun is shining again, but it is still cold. This weather is not good for my allergies. I am craving warm spring days.

I am thinking... about what I need to tell the doctor today, about Easter approaching.

I am thankful for... Corey handling our finances. Thinking about money and numbers makes my head hurt.

In the learning room... I think the boys and I are going to learn about countries this summer. A new country each week. We can cook foods from that culture, etc... David loves this idea. Haydn likes the cooking part.

From the kitchen... The more I watch Food Network, the more comfortable I feel in the kitchen. I made a Giada recipe last Friday. I have some other recipes saved for this week. Mexican Mac and Cheese tonight. I think that is from Rachel Ray.

I am creating... I just finished a cross for church. It is modge-podged with pages from a hymnal. I have an idea for a large canvas for Mom's church. I need to get to work on Leila's scrapbook for her high school years. I have been so unmotivated.

I am going... to Mary's house in a bit. Kristen, Mary and I are going to watch Steel Magnolias and eat salads. We are so cool. ;)

I am wearing... jeans, a shirt with orange and white stripes, a gray hoodie. It is cold.

I am reading... nothing. ALMOST EASTER.

I am hoping... that this new doctor will be able to help me figure out the right med combo.

I am hearing... Corrine Bailey Rae. Jeff sent me some MP3s and I am enjoying them.

Around the house... I am still not 100% unpacked from Mom's. Haven't even begun unpacking from the Happening. I am pretty behind on housework.

One of my favorite things... is my iPod. It has been so good to me. Corey did good, getting me that for Valentine's Day.

A few plans for the rest of the week... Contemplative Prayer services a few nights, Maundy Thursday, Good Friday, EASTER...

Heather

My name has never had any special meaning. There was a character on a soap opera, General Hospital, I believe, that was named Heather. My mom liked the name and didn't know anyone else with that name, so that is what she chose for me. Well, now, a lot of other people seemed to have had the idea at the same time. My name is far from unique. And all it means is "flowering heather." Blah. I have always wished my name had a deeper meaning.

Well over a year ago, it occurred to me that my name is like the flower of the same name, so maybe I should look at what that flower is like to find a meaning for my name. I don't know much about the heather flower, other than: it is purple and grows on the moors (I learned that from Emily Dickinson). I looked it up when this first popped into my head, but I was working full-time and never got around to blogging it. Here goes. :)

According to one site I found, the heather flower blooms in late summer. This makes sense to me. I prefer warm weather. When the flowers wilt and turn brown, they don't always fall off. They tend to stay on the plant all winter. Oh boy, can I relate to that. I cling to old emotions and ideas much longer than I should. They seem to hang on me, and I feel so heavy sometimes.

Not sure what I think about this fact:

The scientific name, Calluna vulgaris, in general, came from Calluna from the
Greek Kallune - to clean or brush, as the twigs were used for making brooms and
vulgaris from Latin, meaning common.


Ohh.. Heather is a usual ingredient in traditional Swedish healing mixtures. I like that, being a part of something that heals. Heather is sometimes known as Ling, which comes from a word for fire and means fuel. I also like this meaning. To heal and to fuel. I want to be a person who fits this description.

The plant also has a high reproductive rate. *snicker*

Some advice on growing Heathers:

  • Heathers prefer full sun and well-drained, acidic soil, and they need protection from cold winter winds.
  • The addition of a little non-burning fertilizer, mixed into the planting soil, will encourage new root growth.
  • Heather must be planted in soil that is well drained, they will not tolerate continual wet feet.
  • The Heather plants should be pruned each year immediately after they have finished flowering, which results in additional flowers the following year.
  • A good feeding fertilizer is required. Poor foliage color, or stunted growth would indicate the need for feeding.
I found this information on THIS WEBSITE.

I like that I have found new meaning in my name. Healing fuel.

Heather

Friday, April 3, 2009

Friday Felicities 4/3/09

In honor of Natalie, who is still loved and missed every single day, please drop by Becky's site and join us in sharing our blessings.

Friday Felicities
  • Tylenol PM
  • Sausage biscuits with jelly/jam
  • Giant salads with equally giant croutons
  • Tuesdays with Mary and Kristin
  • Raigan's new puppy (puppies are like therapy for me)
  • Taxes being finished
  • Corey spending time with the boys
  • Food Network
  • Quick chats with Cat
  • Phone calls from Leila
  • Funny videos
  • Jill Conner Browne's sense of humor

Heather

Disqus for Madame Rubies