Monday, March 30, 2015

Mental Illness on Middle Places

I was a little girl, no more than ten years old, maybe younger. I was upset, riding home from the pool with a friend and her grandmother. What had upset me? I can’t recall. I just remember being overwhelmed and confused. Something was going on inside my head, and I didn’t understand it. 

My friend’s grandmother went inside a gas station and left us in the car. I tried to explain my feelings to my friend, but she didn’t get it. I was crying, sitting on the floorboard of the car, looking up at my perfectly normal friend. Why couldn’t I make her understand? 

I thought hard about how I was feeling. I felt sick, but not sick to my stomach. I didn’t have a cold or anything like that. I wasn’t in physical pain, but I hurt. I felt sick inside my head, and I was a kid with a sizable vocabulary. I could use the word ill instead of the word sick and not think twice about it. I also knew that things dealing with the brain were labeled “mental.” 

I told my friend I was mentally ill. 

Her reaction was less than pleasant.

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Monday, March 16, 2015

Fan-Girling on Middle Places

I believe in fangirl-ing.

I do.

Here’s the deal: When someone inspires you, you should tell them. Tell them face-to-face or write them a letter or send an email or skywrite it with an airplane above their house. I don’t care how you tell them. Just tell them. We need to know when we inspire one another.

God uses people to help people. Often Person-A never even knows God used them to help Person-B. And then, one day, Person-A may be feeling really down. They may be feeling worthless. They may feel like nothing they have done really matters.

That’s when it helps to hear from Person-B.

I tell you this coming off a weekend where I totally fangirl-ed.


Thursday, March 5, 2015

Currently: Forward March

Current Books: I just finished The Invention of Wings by Sue Monk Kidd, and it was a wonderful read. I love novels inspired by true stories. I also just finished a beautiful volume of poetry, Oblation by Rachel M. Srubas. Corey bought me a copy of Breaking Old Rhythms by Amena Brown and I started a review copy of Unabrow by Una LaMarche. I started A Visit from the Good Squad, but I wasn't getting into it. When Unabrow arrived in my mailbox, I abandoned Goon. I need to read a Pulitzer book for my reading challenge, but I will have to pick another one.

Current Playlist: 90s hip-hop/R&B lately

Current Shame-Inducing Guilty Pleasure: Eating Townhouse crackers straight out of the box.

Current Colors: the orangey red of poppies

Current Food: Pumpkin Spice gelato

Current Drink: Coffee out of my poppy Tervis

Current Favorite Favorite: My mother-in-law and father-in-law. They are taking my kids for a week. Can you hear the angels singing?

Current Wishlist: To raise the $1500 needed to build a house in Honduras in Natalie's memory. We are almost 1/3 of the way there.

Current Needs: I need my husband's travel schedule to lighten up.

Current Triumph: Completing this round of edits on my manuscript

Current Bane-of-my-Existence: Distance

Current Indulgence: Binge watching Friends on Netflix

Current Mood: Happy

Current Outfit: Wonder Woman onesie... it's another snow day.

Current #1 Blessing: My husband. He spoils me.

Current Quote: I have some friends going through some hard stuff, making hard decisions, and this line jumped out at me as I read, “I’d chosen the regret I could live with best, that’s all.” ― Sue Monk Kidd, The Invention of Wings

Current Photo:

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